Ini nih, salah satu hal yang sering gw pertanyakan dalam setiap diam gw... (apadah haha)
Dan plan yang gw maksud di sini adalah lebih kepada plan program hidup atau semacam target-target dalam hidup, like cross major S2: Psikologi, beasiswa study abroad, nikah usia 25 tahun, etc.
To plan, to set up targets definitely put us on a clear vision of our life where then we can break down the steps to seize them and calculate the time needed. We write down all of our dreams, every little thing of our dreams in a notebook and give checked mark if it is done. A friend of mine has been consistently doing this since high school and i am jealously happy seeing his checked mark. Theoretically, those are one of the best way to succeed. To add up, it is suggestion that plays in our brain. Experts say suggestion does matter. Positive thinking, khusnuzon, or any other names lead us to be happy. Happiness tends to make people feel successful. So yes, to plan means you have positive suggestion and faith in life.
But...
The idea of how life is so unpredictable is a bit hard to cope at times. Guess it is not only for me, but many others. We plan, we fail, instead we get the unexpected. I remember wrote "FKM-UI-2012" on papers and took a photo of those papers held by my 3 biggest dolls. Intended to make me more eager to catch that faculty, ended up making me broken heart every time i see that photo hahaha. The point is, i can mention soo many good things about planning in life, but i am always bothered by the fact that sometimes the spontaneity wins. To not plan here does not mean carelessly do something, more like less prepared. We be more lay back in pursuing dreams, no need to be too unyielding. In many situations, when i actually want "something" so bad, i keep thinking that i won't get "that something" just to make me not hoping too high. Keep me grounded. However in my veeery honest mind, to think pessimistic about what i want means a hope that actually "that something" will be come true. For i think that we sometimes get what we do not want, so i pretend i do not really want "that something". (Not beating around the bush, just that it is hard even to me to elaborate my mind, lol)
To plan tend to make us think too much, too deep, too far, but more prepared of the unexpected.
To not plan or i prefer say to be spontaneous tend to make us do more, do more, and do again, till we get that.
So which one do you think?
Lastly, i get that after all it is takdir Allah SWT who play the role. I completely surrender. Faith talks.
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