Current Mood: Syebel.

I'm, right now, writing this at Bekasi Train Station~

I'm so frustated that i am left by commuterline (departure 12 am)!!!
So mad!
Why so mad? I am used to coming late anyway. Lol:"(. It's because i have a strict-lecturer class at 1pm that he won't lemme participate in class if i am late by 5 mins after he came :((( and i already have had 3 absents for this lecture. I am seriously gaining 2 horns on my head. If someone is gonna pissin me off, they better don't mind to be spat by me. I helped my dad to do some of his tasks before go, so i am a bit late that i didn't leave home off to station at max. 11.15 :(

Throwing back memories, as i said above that i am used to coming late in almost any occasions since i was an elementary schooler, seems people do think that late is my nature. I feel bad for my self. I never meant to be late. Really.

I just have this habit of overthink of what to wear and what to bring. That's the most often reason behind my tardiness. I even ever had 3,5 hours to dress up! As if i am a worldwide diva!! Shame on me...haha.

Another stupid reason,
I some times miss seeing the time. For illustration, this happened 6 days ago that i had an appointment with Abel to attend news club meeting at 11 am. I don't know what was going on with my eyes at that time, but i saw that was still 8 am, instead of 9 am, so i enjoyed my preparation time leasurely. Btw, it tooks 2 hours from home to campus + at least an hour to prepare. So, that time, Abel had come to campus at 11.00ish while i came at 12.00ish. So silly. I felt guilty towards her. Fortunately, she already knows me well enough that she didn't go over rage heheheh.

Don't want to, will not, may not, must not come late again. Ever.

I'm in dire need to fix my habit.


Edit:
Universe seemed to go hard on me. The 12.30 pm train got stopped at Cakung and Jatinegara, it hella took my time! Bad luck. After touching down Manggarai at 5mins to go to 1 pm, i was rushed to take ojek on a super sunny day and i paid him 25k rupiahs. I finally arrived at campus at 1 pm something (less than 20 mins) but the lecturer was already in class so i was kicked out of class huhu, so...i surpass my absence chances limit (4 times). Cannot be late again or i'll go thru enroll class for photography on semester 5 for 6 months-_________- *noooo*

I felt like crying that i couldn't make it after some sacrifices i did. Just imagine this, taking ojek at such time when i didn't put any sunblock on my face and have a grudge to dust. Lucky me that i always have one small towel in my bag. Without thinking much, i fully cover my face with the towel, didn't care about people who might think i'm looking weird. Hueheu.

My mood swung into the worst part ever since i am being a college-er due to that incident. I decided to skip the next lecture, that is statistic, i went home instead, then sleep, the be happy again. Finishhh~ :-D

Ini frustating banget loh.


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